Realize.

omg, i'm so boredddd. -.-

while everyone's on holidays with tons of work, i'm right here blogging and indulging in, what i call, absolute boredom. i have totally nothing to do, well, except for revising physics which i'll definitely do it later. i don't know what took me so long to realise that i should be really serious with my life. hopefully it's not too late, i have failed too many times before but the last failure was like a slap in my face. a slap in my face. although it did hurt, but i'm glad it woke me up and i'm back on track again. if i fail again this time, i don't think i'll ever forgive myself. disappointments i get from the people i love and being disappointed with myself. sigh.

i tell myself everytime now i must work my way through, work is work and play time will have it's own space. it's my life i'm messing with, and it isn't like a piece dough, it doesn't come back to shape when i step on it.

(okay, san said hi to this blog) <--- she did made me type this while i'm having a chat with her on msn now at 1.55am.

i think people do grow eventually and i think i have grew, although not done growing yet, but i did grew. at least, i think i communicate with people better now. you should see me when i was younger, a total loser when it comes to talking. lol. it's either i talk very little or i won't even start a conversation with you. may it be just a "how are you?", i didn't had the courage to ask. hah, i was very VERY timid. :P

till then,
cheerio mates!